Do we really need to depend on someone or is it just nice to have somoene. Its great to find someone that you can be happy with, and its wonderful to have someone to love, its even better to have someone to love you. They put a smile on your face faster then you could think about frowning. They lift your spirit and brighten your life. It seems to be perfect, but we all know it cant always be. You have to find someone that is going to love flaws and look for inperfection. They have fun with you, and dont try to change you. And most important they help you through the heard times.

wild things

I have been to my lowest lows. I have done things and been places that aren’t good. But from being in these places, and doing these things I have learned how life should be lived. I have learned who is here to stay and who will walk away. Everyone is going to have a bad side to them, but they also choose what they do with that bad side. They can play it out and become a bad person, or they can control it and be the person they truly want to be. I have been to my lowest lows but they brought me to my highest rainbows.

It takes rain to make a rainbow... Lifes always going to throw things in your way, always try to get you off track. Its not always going to be happy or easy, its not always going to be fun or exciting. It wont always be smiles but a lot of the time tears. Life is rocky, things get complicated, it gets hard, your going to fall down, your going to have doubts about many things. Your going to be lied to and your going to be hurt. This is all going to happen at some point, maybe it will all happen at the same time. But it will get better, the light is always going to shine, the road will always get smoother as long as you stay strong and believe in yourself, believe that it will get better and have faith in the important things. You have to see rain to find the rainbow...

fall on faith

It’s the moment you find faith, that “wow” moment when everything starts coming together. Everything seems great, you are so happy that you find something to believe in. You truly accept that there is a higher power and he is here to help you. Life comes so much easier, seems more exciting and it is as if nothing can stand in your way. Then you start realizing true value in life, you find someone to love, find something to be passionate about, realize that even though family can be crazy that they are extremely important. When you fall down he picks you back up, and even at your lowest low he is right by your side guiding you, but you have to be the one to open your eyes to see what is right in front of you. Life should be fun, life should be exciting, it should give you something to believe in. Find faith in everyday. When you look into the sky how could you not believe in him.

learn about yourself

How much are we in control of ourselves?
I think that people do what they want and do the things that will make them and the ones they love happy. Some people are selfish and only want to help themselves, but some people truly want to help others. Can we control what kind of person we are? Can we even control the things that we want to do? I believe that you have the choice to do either right or wrong, but for some there are more wrong choices that they can make. Your morals should guide you but sometimes other things get in the way. No one can be perfect, everyone is going to make mistakes. I don’t think anyone really wants to be good all the time anyway. People say that they only do the things that they want to do, no one is going to tell them what to do but no matter what, sometime in your life you will be influenced or told to do something that you don’t want to do but sometimes you will still do them. Strong people have control over themselves to an extent, and weaker people aren’t always pushed around.

How well do we even know ourselves?
No one knows themselves as much as they wish they could. You don’t always see your flaws and you don’t always see the great things about yourself. There are things about us that we want to keep secret from everyone else. Maybe they are thoughts, maybe they are things from the past or things we want to do in the future. We know what is in our heart most of the time, but everyone else sees what actions we make. Others know our personality better, we know our feelings better.

To what extent can we ever be sure of anything?
There are always things that could go bad, but there is also a chance that it be the best thing of your life. You never know how a situation could end up. A lot of the time we aren’t in sure in ourselves and sometimes in anyone else, but then again sometimes we can put too much trust into someone who in the end isn’t worth it. Sometimes it’s hard to believe in things that we don’t even know are true, but people tell us you can run on just believing. What happens when you believe the wrong things? You learn from it. People have doubts in everything, and they always will, you can’t be optimistic about everything, and can’t have faith or trust in everyone. But how do you know what to believe, what to love, what to like and what to dislike? You don’t know, you make decisions and hope for the best, sometimes they aren’t but then again sometimes they are exactly what you needed all along.

the scariest moment of my life

I’m in the middle back seat just talking away as if nothing is wrong. Don’t know where we are, don’t know how to get back. Its dark, and its rainy with old rotting barns in every direction along with half cut corn fields. That its self should be scary enough, but no it’s not even close to comparing with what will happen next. Like I said, just talking and driving trying to get directions. “That corner is coming sharp guys, watch that turn!” it’s much too late the back end of the car is now sliding, it is sliding right into a field. She is trying to correct it, maybe a little too much. Now crossing through the street and facing the large ditch coming up ahead, much too fast for our control. Back and forth, side to side, from ditch to ditch. Two, three, no four more times. Faces are smacking into windshields and windows, I’m flying all over the back seat with no control of my own body. The ditch is so deep that when I look to my left all I can see is grass and dirt pressed against my window with my face against it as well, but it is still not over one more jerk of the wheel sends us back out of the ditch. Finally the car stops, directly in the middle of the road, I look to my right and once again, I see that old half torn barn by my side. The car starts again without a word to be said from the passengers, we are sitting in complete silence until we see lights ahead, and finally our almost tragic and uncontrollable nightmare has come to an end.