Sometimes people drag you down to Maur themselves feel better. It doesnt make a whole lot of sense to me why they feel the need. Some people are just mean and self centered I guess. All you can do is be your best you. Dont pay attention to the words that are spoken about you from those that dont know you. You just brush it off and make it make you stronger and let it make you into a better person. Let God and yourself be the judge of your life.

Weekends make me want summer. Its like a little taste of feedom but as Monday morning rolls back around your trapped in hell again. You look so forward to the end of school so it just drags on for what seems like ever. The weather starts to get nice, just teasing you as you look out of the window. So tempted to just go outside and run around, pools start to open and flowers are at their best bloom. You change out your closet from the large sweaters and jeans to the new bright tank tops, shorts and flip flops. Summer, its time to play.

Their Eyes Were Watching God

I thought the movie and the book were both great. It really makes you look at your own life and see if it is really what you want. Are you really as happy as you can be? It makes women realize that they can stand up for themselves and have a voice to speak. It is very influential on many people, and should be. Janie starts off thinking she is a strong woman and really ends up being one with Tea Cake because of the events that have happened in her life. Everyone can relate to this book because we all have things that we arent proud of and arent happy about, but Janie takes what she is given and makes a life of it, a good life at that. She finds herself and becomes the woman she always wanted to be.

Road signs

When you get mad are you the kind of person that has to make it known? You can yell, hoot, and holler or you can choose to just let it go. Yeah, we all have times where we just want to set someone straight, but does it always end up helping? Ypu have to be the judge of the situation, will it help or just be a complete waste of time? Sometimes honking your horn just makes you look bad yourself rather than make anything better. But then again there are times when people need to be told they are doing wrong. You honk your own horn at your own anger.

never cut what you can untie.

When your put in tough situations you are forced to make tough decisions. The worst possible thing that you could ever do is make it even more tough on yourself or anyone else. Sometimes you can't take the easy way out to become the happiest. You don't want to ruin your life or even just your day because you want to take the easy way out of something.
If you cut a rope, it ends up looking ugly and broken, if you untie it and do it the right way then things will be normal and best. Its the same idea of bad situations...

Summer

Summer is starting to approach. My favorite time of the year. Its so bright and sunny, so many things to do outside. Shorts and tshirts, swim suits and beach towels. four wheelers, swimming pools, baseball games, corn hole games, cook outs, you name it I do it. And finally softball season. Seven years already, come and gone so fast, on for the eighth straight year with bats, balls, gloves and dirt. Can't forget about the boyfriend returning home again. More time together, drive inn, family get togethers, sporting events. Nothing gets better than summtertime!

Red hot coils

A hoit stove it always going to burn you if you touch and test it. We feel the heat and we know the pain, but sometimes it is so tempting. The fire is mesmorizing, you cant look awayand sometimes it is dificult to turn away. But you must look out for yourself. Take care of yourself, stand up for yourself, dont allow yourself to touch that red hot coil, not again.

Dreams vs. goals

Dreams and goals. very different yet at the same time similar. Dreams can sometimes be out of reach, dreams are some what a fantasy but if you turn that dream into a goal it becomes more real and more achieavable. dreams are just thoughts and wants, goals require action and determination. Dreams aren't so far away if you turn them into goals.

Running, why would anyone want to run? I hate it. All it is is pain. Loss of breath, blisters, hot, side stitches and shin splints. Wahoo, loads of fun. So why do I run? Its my time, my energy and my pain. I know its not for my weight, I wouldnt eat the junk I do if I cared that much. I guess its what lies underneath all of that. The freedom, the relaxation of it all. When you run you think about that road and your feet moving. Everything you want to forget about never existed and everything you hoped for is what your chasing after. You decide how far you run, how fast you run, and when the pain is unbearable. Running is the only thing you can do that lets you choose what you think and how you feel. You can run as far away from or as close to whatever you want just by stepping out your front door with tennis shoes and shorts.

its moments like these that I love my life. I love the stink smell of the outdoors, I love the blinding glare of the setting sun, I love the annoying sound of turkey calls, and the loud roar of a four wheeler. I love looking out on the almost flat land and seeing beauty for miles. I love the colors of the sunset and surroundings off the lake. Most would see an ugly half torn barn but I see hard work and simple beauty. Front porches, ive cold sweet tea and a nice rocking chair with a radio in the background is what I call relaxation. Enjoy the simple life.

Of Mice and Men

I think that the ending of the story was good. Not everything can end good and happy and most people don’t like that. They don’t want to face reality and death but it’s going to happen. Of course not everyone will be shot by the one person that they trust, but George was forced to make a very tough decision and I personally think that it was a good choice. He knew Lennie was happy and he made sure it was quick, and he also made sure that he didn’t know it was coming. I think it would have just scared Lennie if he knew and I think it would have just made him sad and make him feel guilty. He did do something bad and he knew it was bad but there was no reason for him, with his disability, to suffer the guilt and to know that he was being killed by his best friend.

terrifying babysitter

Ruby was her name, sounds horrifying enough already, but that’s just the beginning. I was too young to remember but my mother still tells me the stories of my very first babysitter. She was my aunt, aunt Ruby, living just a few houses down from my memaw and no one knew what happened behind the closed doors. After long days at work my mom would come to save me, at first she never imagined to walk through the door and find her baby girl dirty, smelly, and in tears. I would suffer all day without a diaper change, I would never receive a bath even when I desperately needed one from afternoons in the dirt. I would be placed on the floor and ignored after that. My mother soon started to notice random bruises, Ruby had no explanation. Finally my mother was fed up, we found a new babysitter and I soon became the new terror. Like any other afternoon my mother came to pick me up and heard the story of me biting the other children, but it soon stopped. So after that day my afternoons were perfect with a new babysitter.

Death Poets Society

The movie Dead Poets Society was a very interesting movie. It makes me wonder what I would do in a situation like that. I would want to stand up for what was right but it would take so much courage for anyone to do that. I honestly think that I would be able to though, because I would never want someone to suffer for something they didn’t do, especially when it involves the death of a student. It makes you really want to embrace life and make a difference for the better. I think that the boys should have stood up and took responsibility for the secret group, it wasn’t the cause of Neil’s death, it was just a group that they all wanted and to participate in, no one was forced to be there they all made the choice themselves. Over all I thought it was a great movie, very inspirational.

when you dont know what to do.

What do you do when you don’t know what to do? Everyone has had a moment where they have to make a tough decision, so in the end how do you know what the right choice would be? Then what do you do if you make a mistake while making the decision? Do you regret anything, if you don’t regret does that mean you don’t care? You’re being torn between two really tough situations. Each has its pros and each has its cons. Do you go on what makes you happy or should you think about other people to? Life throws so many questions at you all at one time. Should you really let yourself stress over it or just take life as it comes? I think you should follow your heart always, if you care about that person, that thing, that place, anything in the world. If you’re not passionate about it, if it’s not worth fighting for it’s not worth having. You have to work for everything you have in your life and want to keep in your life. You work for someone to stay through good and bad, you work for sports practice makes perfect, you work for schools to have a better future. What do you do when you don’t know what to do? You work for what you truly want in life.

freedom

My favorite place in the world would have to be out in the country by a lake where you can just feel the freedom and see the beauty of the natural world. You feel the wind wrapping all around you whipping back and forth, blowing your hair all around, you feel wild and free, safe and calm, wonderful and bright… When you look forward you can see the sunset, oh how lovely, reflecting off the lake. My grandma always says “when you see the beauty of a sunset is when you truly know there is a gracious God.” I hear her voice speak those words even when she is not around, what a wonderful God to bring us such light, what a wonderful God... I can smell the outdoors, the trees, the fresh air, the soil of the fields. The best smell in the world, the smell of freedom, the smell of relaxation. I can smell the water from the lake, it’s a good smell… Every sound is enhanced, so wonderful, so beautiful. Birds become artists, singing amazing songs, crickets chirp all around. The country is free, and beautiful filled with many possibilities.

Its crazy how you spend your whole life being an independent person, and not wanting to have any kind of relationship but when you do finally find someone who is worth a relationship you are happier than you have ever been. Its a wonderful feeling to be able to care about someone with all your heart and its even better to get that feeling from someone else, to know you are loved. Open your heart and let people in after you realize that they are a good person. .. Its the hardest thing to have a long distance relationship, and I know people think its crazy to think you can have serious love at such a young age, but love is love, its heart and soul, mind and all, no different than the way an adult feels. Its not easy to love someone far away, but it makes the times that you do get to spend with them so important. If its worth having its worth fighting for.

Live. Laugh. Love. The there most important words of life. You should always LIVE your life to the fullest. Have as much fun as possible and enjoy every minute of it... LAUGH as often as possible. When you laugh your having fun and enjoying what your doing... LOVE like you have never been hurt before. Love is amazing, dont give up on it, its the best feeling in the world wethee you have been hurt before or not. And two extra words, dance and sing. DANCE like no one is watching, enjoy yourself and dont worry about judgement, your having fun while they arent. SING like no one is listening, wether you have a nice voice or not singing brightens your day and opens your heart.

''I think the thing to do is enjoy the ride while your on it''- I love this quote because why would you not want to live life to the fullest? Do things that make you happy and the people that you care about happy because one day it will all come to an end and you wont be given the chance to do the things you never got around to doing. At the end of your life you dont want to regret never doing those things that made you happy.

Its the small things in life that we should cherish, love, notice. Small things that are beautiful and wonderful. The fresh breath of a spring morning. The sun shining onto and reflecting off of a lake. The smile of a friend and the touch of a loved one. The tune of and up beat song. The taste of sweetened iced tea on a summer afternoon. Laughing as much as possible. Its the little things that count, so cherish them.

When you walk into church, are you there because you feel like you have to be, someone makes you, your scared of going to hell or any other reason it could be, or are you there because you honestly want to be, you want to learn, you want to show your love and faith. Do you truly listen or just pretend to make yourself look like a good person. You look around and see each person and ask why are they here? Do they belong here? Well next time you walk into church and decide to judge, try judging yourself and see what you come up with. Everyone sins, its the ones that make up for it that are good people.

Do we really need to depend on someone or is it just nice to have somoene. Its great to find someone that you can be happy with, and its wonderful to have someone to love, its even better to have someone to love you. They put a smile on your face faster then you could think about frowning. They lift your spirit and brighten your life. It seems to be perfect, but we all know it cant always be. You have to find someone that is going to love flaws and look for inperfection. They have fun with you, and dont try to change you. And most important they help you through the heard times.

wild things

I have been to my lowest lows. I have done things and been places that aren’t good. But from being in these places, and doing these things I have learned how life should be lived. I have learned who is here to stay and who will walk away. Everyone is going to have a bad side to them, but they also choose what they do with that bad side. They can play it out and become a bad person, or they can control it and be the person they truly want to be. I have been to my lowest lows but they brought me to my highest rainbows.

It takes rain to make a rainbow... Lifes always going to throw things in your way, always try to get you off track. Its not always going to be happy or easy, its not always going to be fun or exciting. It wont always be smiles but a lot of the time tears. Life is rocky, things get complicated, it gets hard, your going to fall down, your going to have doubts about many things. Your going to be lied to and your going to be hurt. This is all going to happen at some point, maybe it will all happen at the same time. But it will get better, the light is always going to shine, the road will always get smoother as long as you stay strong and believe in yourself, believe that it will get better and have faith in the important things. You have to see rain to find the rainbow...

fall on faith

It’s the moment you find faith, that “wow” moment when everything starts coming together. Everything seems great, you are so happy that you find something to believe in. You truly accept that there is a higher power and he is here to help you. Life comes so much easier, seems more exciting and it is as if nothing can stand in your way. Then you start realizing true value in life, you find someone to love, find something to be passionate about, realize that even though family can be crazy that they are extremely important. When you fall down he picks you back up, and even at your lowest low he is right by your side guiding you, but you have to be the one to open your eyes to see what is right in front of you. Life should be fun, life should be exciting, it should give you something to believe in. Find faith in everyday. When you look into the sky how could you not believe in him.

learn about yourself

How much are we in control of ourselves?
I think that people do what they want and do the things that will make them and the ones they love happy. Some people are selfish and only want to help themselves, but some people truly want to help others. Can we control what kind of person we are? Can we even control the things that we want to do? I believe that you have the choice to do either right or wrong, but for some there are more wrong choices that they can make. Your morals should guide you but sometimes other things get in the way. No one can be perfect, everyone is going to make mistakes. I don’t think anyone really wants to be good all the time anyway. People say that they only do the things that they want to do, no one is going to tell them what to do but no matter what, sometime in your life you will be influenced or told to do something that you don’t want to do but sometimes you will still do them. Strong people have control over themselves to an extent, and weaker people aren’t always pushed around.

How well do we even know ourselves?
No one knows themselves as much as they wish they could. You don’t always see your flaws and you don’t always see the great things about yourself. There are things about us that we want to keep secret from everyone else. Maybe they are thoughts, maybe they are things from the past or things we want to do in the future. We know what is in our heart most of the time, but everyone else sees what actions we make. Others know our personality better, we know our feelings better.

To what extent can we ever be sure of anything?
There are always things that could go bad, but there is also a chance that it be the best thing of your life. You never know how a situation could end up. A lot of the time we aren’t in sure in ourselves and sometimes in anyone else, but then again sometimes we can put too much trust into someone who in the end isn’t worth it. Sometimes it’s hard to believe in things that we don’t even know are true, but people tell us you can run on just believing. What happens when you believe the wrong things? You learn from it. People have doubts in everything, and they always will, you can’t be optimistic about everything, and can’t have faith or trust in everyone. But how do you know what to believe, what to love, what to like and what to dislike? You don’t know, you make decisions and hope for the best, sometimes they aren’t but then again sometimes they are exactly what you needed all along.

the scariest moment of my life

I’m in the middle back seat just talking away as if nothing is wrong. Don’t know where we are, don’t know how to get back. Its dark, and its rainy with old rotting barns in every direction along with half cut corn fields. That its self should be scary enough, but no it’s not even close to comparing with what will happen next. Like I said, just talking and driving trying to get directions. “That corner is coming sharp guys, watch that turn!” it’s much too late the back end of the car is now sliding, it is sliding right into a field. She is trying to correct it, maybe a little too much. Now crossing through the street and facing the large ditch coming up ahead, much too fast for our control. Back and forth, side to side, from ditch to ditch. Two, three, no four more times. Faces are smacking into windshields and windows, I’m flying all over the back seat with no control of my own body. The ditch is so deep that when I look to my left all I can see is grass and dirt pressed against my window with my face against it as well, but it is still not over one more jerk of the wheel sends us back out of the ditch. Finally the car stops, directly in the middle of the road, I look to my right and once again, I see that old half torn barn by my side. The car starts again without a word to be said from the passengers, we are sitting in complete silence until we see lights ahead, and finally our almost tragic and uncontrollable nightmare has come to an end.